Technical Difficulties...and great losses!

Well, I have FINALLY bloody managed to sign back in to this site! Wow, what a pain in the....

So where was I? Ahhh yes, my last weigh in etc. April 9th. I have lost another 2.5" all over my body and my current weight is 220.6. But even bigger, my body fat is down 3.9%!!!!!!!!! Wahoooo. What a victory!
New stats:
Right arm: 14.25"
Right thigh: 26.5"
Right calf: 16.25"
Waist: 39.5"
Hips: 46"
Chest: 41.5"
Total inches lost: 8"
Weight: 220.6
Body fat: 38%
BMI:35.5

I have some new goals for this upcoming week.
1) Run 3.5 miles at 4.8 mph.
2) Follow my points -- again, I'm watching what is going into my mouth, but I am not sure that I'm always honest with myself about what I am eating or the portion sizes. Maybe I need to get some new measuring tools...
3) Continue to enjoy my workouts! I am loving the gym. What a stress reliever it is to go in there, hop on a machine and just run/elliptical off all the frustration in my life.

My longer term goal for this month is to get up to running 6 miles....yes, I know. Insane. Fat girls can't run that much! But I've been challenged to run the Bolder Boulder....sooooooo, I have to! Well, actually I think I will decide if I am going to do it and make it a goal for next month. My one and only goal for this month is to lose 10lbs by 4/30. Big goal! That means I have 7 pound to go...

I love how my body is changing. I can feel my ribs again -- and wow the muscles! I feel a million times better than I did a month ago. I don't feel this insane rush to lose this 70 pounds. I feel in control, and healthy and excited that I am making a change. I like this feeling and I am going to keep coming back to this as my centering point when things get difficult.

And in other little victories news, yesterday I really wanted a cheeseburger and fries. I didn't deny my craving, but instead of Sonic, I got a veggie burger and frozen fries from the store. A way better choice! I have been reading The Beck Diet Solution which has some really good insights on eating behaviors. Why do I keep shoving food into my mouth? Well I'm learning about that. And I'm learning how to change that behavior.

I am so proud of myself for all of the things I have accomplished these past few weeks. Sure, the scale isn't really saying what I want it to -- but I've made great strides and I've committed to something in my life that is healthy, realistic and for the first time something I really want to do.

The last step for me right now is to really work on visualizing what I see myself looking like after. This is sooooooooooo hard for me to do because I've never been a 'skinny' girl. So I don't have an old picture or even a mental one of what I want to look like. This is my goal number 4 for this week. I really want to think about what my body is going to look like minus the lumpy bits...

Well, that's all for this post. I'm glad I sorted out how to get back on here!

Hasta la proxima,
Ms. Mission